20. Apr, 2019

And through the cracks in the eggshell,

the little dove peeps out:

little by little, its muffled voice

announces itself to the world.

Soon it is out, clumsy and wet.

It moves slowly around.

I hold it on the palm of my hand:

it throbs with new life, warm and soft,

tender like a blossom.

Our hearts ablaze under the midday sun.

20. Apr, 2019

Another stole the dream

we dreamt in the meadows of love;

we were bold, we were wild

till we lingered on.

In the meadow, we lay on the grass

we whispered tender words of devotion,

we imagined our embrace out of linear time,

we carved out our spiral of belonging,

we entwined our limbs and our hearts

till the slanting sun went down

on the graveyard: we walked in silence 

to the hilltop, the city of grey

and red bricks sprawled below. 

Dark clouds projected their shadows

on the places of the living and of the dead.

Love and death walked hand in hand.




20. Apr, 2019

I want to forget this April day

when Spring pierces my heart 

like a spear of fire,

as you throw away the stones in your pockets

in the name of an ineffable present.

The past, albeit gone, swells inside me

like the sweeping river of grief.

The future is uncertain dawn.

Strewn with sharp glass is the path -- 

a Via Crucis inside my heart.

2. Feb, 2019

Snow cleanses the paths,

a red robin hops from branch

to branch.

Fire in the ice melts away

the lie of the past.

Now is queen of hearts.

A pale sapling sprouts

from the ground.

Fiery winds of the exalted One

sweep the streets of the mind.

Sudden rain purifies

the byways of the heart;

mists wraps up the body of the earth.

Water of life springs

from inner rock forged by fire,

as the exalted One spreads 

her magic on earth.

24. Dec, 2018

Long ago, in a faraway land lived an ancient tribe.

The crones and elders sat in council together and the children gathered to listen to their spellbinding stories.

Story time was a ceremony of the utmost importance and happened after each member of the tribe had attended to their duties towards the community, whether it was gathering roots and berries, planting seed and harvesting the crops according to season, or milking the cows.

Everybody was there. People would gather in circle, and the children and the youngsters would sit in two inner circles, with the shaman placed at the very centre.

When the time was ripe, the tribe would sit under a sacred tree. 

It was so huge and sturdy, with an upright trunk and twisted roots that surfaced on the ground, only to push deeper into the earth; its branches spread out in all directions so high in the sky that on cloudy days it seemed they were scratching the clouds themselves.

Nobody knew how the sacred tree had grown in those flat lands. They said it was a gift from the gods. They said it had sprung up above the land overnight.

It was a unique tree, the only one of its species. In stormy nights, it glared like a huge eye and licked the dark sky like a huge tongue of fire.


Jemai's head was full of the stories about the sacred tree.

Soon, he would come of age. This was to be the last time he listened to the shaman's stories before going out alone in the wilderness.

On this special special evening, as the sun lowered on the horizon, he sat in his circle and waited for the ceremony to begin.

The shaman held his gaze, as he danced and called the spirits of the ancestors to preside over their gathering.

"Our sacred tree-- he said -- is a bridge between Father Sky and Mother Earth. Its roots push beyond the sky and entrails of Mother Earth. They reach deep down into the Great Unknown, where our ancestors dwell."

The shaman reported descriptions of a realm of fire and ice, which he had visited on his journeys. There the Great Snake coiled around the roots of the sacred tree and the Red Fox hid in its hollows.

"The ancestors say -- the shaman continued staring at Jemai -- that the tree holds a secret, a fiery spear: whoever finds it will bring prosperity to the tribe. Who will go in search of the fiery spear?"

"I will" -- said Jemai in a breath.

At that, adult men looked at one another; yet, for all their perplexities, they did not want to leave their wives and children. Had the shaman not said that the way was fraught with dangers and there was no guarantee of safe return? The ones who had tried before had either gone mad, or been dispersed, or both, when they had been spared by the jaws of the Great Snake.

Jemai left behind no one, for his father had died in the hunt and his mother had died in childbirth. Thus, it was set.


That night, they tied Jemai to the trunk of the sacred tree, covered his eyes with a thick plait of leaves and went back to the village.

Jemai waited and waited.

He listened to the voice of the night. Crickets and owls brought him her messages: "Ask the creatures of the night to free you. Go home, Jemai, be safe and leave in peace."

But Jemai's will was set. He was born for this quest.

Little by little, with his eyes shut, he could feel himself tumbling down a huge hole.

Down he fell.

He could not make out how far or how long. He just knew he was descending down below.

He landed in a dark, narrow hall, where eyes like fiery embers were watching him in silence.

In the free fall, he had lost his bindings and the plait of leaves.

The only sound he could make out was the hissing of the Great Snake.

"You've come for the spear, have you not," he said.

Jemai nodded.

The malevolent ember eyes were still watching him. Jemai looked away, for he knew those eyes had the power to drive everyone crazy.

The Red Fox came forward then, still staring at him with piercing rage and said:

"Who are you? Why should we give the fiery spear to you? Has your tribe run out of grown men? Or are they afraid?"

"I have nothing to lose," Jemai said.

"Ah, very brave of you"-- said the Great Snake, " we shall give you the fiery spear on one condition. Fulfil it, and you will have it. Fail, and you will die the most awful death."

"What is your condition? I am not scared."

"You will spend one whole year in our kingdom, never uttering a single word, no matter your circumstances. If you let the faintest sound out, you are done for.

You will never see the light of the day or the starry night again.

Your tribe will forget you ever trod upon the earth. Do you accept?"

"I accept," said Jemai.


Time went slowly, especially because Jemai didn't have a way of measuring it: there was no sun, moon or stars in the Great Unknown.

He could only observe in silence the pale hosts of sighing ancestors.

He would bite his lips till bleeding, in order to prevent himself from speaking and asking them questions.

When his time in the Great Unknown was almost over, his parents came forward, reaching out to him, asking questions, and looking sad and spent when he did not answer.

Jemai saw his mother for the first time and imagined she must have been beautiful when alive.

His father's torso was still marred by the wound inflicted by the boar he had been hunting.

Other spirits came along coaxing him into speech, in vain. Jemai closed his eyes, bit his lips and put his hands on his ears. Then he collapsed into a dumb, heavy slumber.


When the tribesmen found him, they could not trust their own eyes. 

Jemai was lying down beneath the canopy of the sacred tree, covering the long fiery spear with his body. He had grown tall and brawny.

The point of the spear glinted where the sun hit it.

They tried to recover the spear first, but Jemai was so bulky and heavy that it was outright impossible, so they woke him up.

It took a while for Jemai to come back from the depths of the Great Unknown. 

When he sat up, and opened his eyes, he stared blankly at the sun: he was blind.

The women gave him water and food, which he devoured.

He stood up. At first he was out of balance. Yet, he refused support from the men.

He uttered just a few words, for he had learnt the value of silence.

Soon he stood upright and walked away.


Everybody respected him, for he had been to the Great Unknown and back. He had gained the fiery spear and had grown into an implacable warrior, who was able to defend his tribe from all danger, and guide them in times of need.

Jemai was the only mortal man who could wield the fiery spear.

The fame of Jemai, the Blind Warrior, reached the corners of the world, but nobody ever knew the secrets of his heart.


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